I find it interesting that people can be so loyal to one another, and yet, find it ok to betray, or think the worst of, the same people they claim to have loved and been loyal to. I'm beginning to see why so many people in this world are jaded towards others. I am also determined NOT to be that person. People are imperfect. Hashem made us and loves us in spite of our imperfections and tendencies to treat others wrongly. We, as a general rule, sometimes forget that these people we are fond of, or have relationships with, are imperfect. We make mistakes, bad decisions. This does not mean there should be no consequences for bad behavior, simply that we should be forgiving of folks while remembering bad decisions or mistakes we may have made in the past. Forgiveness does not mean forgetting, nor does it mean that trust should be restored immediately. Forgiveness simply means we no longer hold anger or blame towards whomever did wrong.
Trust should be earned, it is not a right. It is easier to gain trust the first time, once one has broken another's trust, it takes a whole lot more to earn that trust back. As it should be. There are those who may not deserve our trust, this does not mean that they ought not to be treated and spoken to with civility. It simply means that they are not to be trusted with the most intimate details of our lives, or any, depending on how the trust is broken.
Obviously I am struggling to define forgiveness and trust right now. I have had the unfortunate experience of being betrayed by someone I considered to be family by choice recently. I suppose that also means that I am struggling to extend forgiveness as well. Trust will probably never be extended to this person again, but I know that forgiveness is a must, otherwise I am the one who will suffer continually with the pain of this. I see unforgiveness as a cancer of the soul. It will eat away at you until all you think of is the one who wronged you and that is simply unacceptable, as that allows that one to control you.
What say you?
I believe you are heading in the right direction girl......... we must always find forgiveness, however, once a trust has been broken we may never feel comfortable with confiding in those people again!!! I was raised to believe the the ONLY thing that you have that is a true reflection of who you are is your WORD! And that if someone trusts you enough to confide in you that YOU MUST treasure that trust!! I'm pretty sure that this type of thinking has been lost in today's world though.... <3 you sweet girl..... forgiveness will come to you in time.... but trust may never return.... and that is okay!!! :)
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